out...out...out of my shell

So yesterday, coach didn't let me play at the match.  I could have so creamed that girl but he didn't let me play so what can I do.  Well he didn't tell me until right before lineups.  I needed more warning than that because I definately did not see that coming.  I mean I prepared for that match knowing I was going to be hurting.  That takes a lot of mental strength and focus to know you're going to be in pain and be ready to block it out.  So yeah I lost it when he told me.  I mean I know I didn't let on that it hurt that bad to him so I don't know why he decided to do that.  The team played horrible though and we lost 6-3 but we should have won for sure.  Everyone played lazy except maybe Ashley.

So today we had another match.  Coach wanted me to rest my foot one more day.  Gahhhhh but I kinda figured he wasn't going to let me play.  It was easier to take this time.  He wants me to be ready for next week because we have some tough matches.  But anyway, we won 9-0.  Renee absolutely hates singles.  She told me during the other matches that she just doesn't like being out there by herself so I would go to whatever side she was playing on and stand by the fence.  She was really nervous too about being the only one to lose.  I gave her some advice just to keep her mind off that and focused on the winning.  It worked.  She won 1 and 2.  What can I say, I'm a great coach.

So I hope you like me starting every paragraph with so.

Breaking habit is hard to do.  But I'm trying and not just on the blog but in life as well.  Dare I say I have actually talked to people I don't know.  Shocker I know but that really is something I need to get over.  Especially since like everything I might end up doing after I graduate requires me making the initiative and the first contact.  

Why oh why me...